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Post by carson on Mar 16, 2011 12:20:48 GMT -10
 just talk yourself up[/size] A N D T E A R Y O U R S E L F D O W N - - - - - - - - - - - -Carson just wanted all of this to be figured out. He still cared so much for Zaryn, and this wasn’t helping him get over her. In all honesty, he didn’t know if he could ever get over her. She’d always be there in his head, whether he liked it or not. There was just something about her that made him weak. He didn’t know if it was her eyes, her smile, her touch… it was most likely all of it. Maybe it was just the way she made him feel like the only person in the room even if she was angry. It made no sense, but in his head, somehow it did. Even standing here in the snow, freezing to death, as long as he was with her, he was happy. He would have said he was love struck, but he could still function even though they weren’t together anymore. If he were legit love struck, he wouldn’t be able to do anything else properly.
He knew that they couldn’t just stand her silent forever. Something had to happen. And he was hoping against all odds that something good would come out of this. If for nothing else then to at least be friends again. Since the break up, he hadn’t talked to her at all. Like it was something forbidden. But they had got along really well as friends before they had even started dating. And that was always a nice reminder. Even though he couldn’t get the chance to be privileged to call her his girlfriend, he’d definitely be happy to call her a good friend again. She had been one of his better friends at the school anyway. He had his group of buddies, but she had been one of the few girls who genuinely liked to be around him to just hang out and do whatever. He missed it more than he thought.
Carson flexed his fingers against the cold that was starting to numb them. Originally his hat and jacket had worked to fend off the chilly air, but not anymore. Now he was getting a little wet, and a lot cold. And he couldn’t imagine how cold Zaryn might be. She wasn’t exactly well dressed for the weather. Even though she still looked good to him. She always did. And she always would. His eyes glanced back to her as he heard her trying to speak. He really wanted to figure this out. If he could just give him some indication that this wasn’t just a fluke, he’d be happy. Even if he didn’t get her back, he just wanted the chance to be close to her again. He could even picture them as friends. The way they used to laugh at silly comedy movies, or the way they could sit on the bed and just talk about whatever came to mind.
He swallowed as he heard the words come out of her mouth. Go back? Go back to what exactly? To the school to get out of the snow, or back together as a couple? Her eyebrows furrowed slightly as he tried to wrap his mind around her question. He chewed lightly on his lower lip. “Go back as in… us?” He had to ask. He wanted to make sure he wasn’t going crazy. He would love for her to mean going back this way. He wanted to pull her back into his arms, to hold her tight the way he used to. He was quite nearly crossing his fingers as his hands stayed placed in his pockets. He knew it could be just a pipe dream, but he didn’t want it to be. He just wanted her. Wanted everything to be back to the way it was. He knew it might take time for that to happen, but as long as he had her with him, he’d wait forever until it was the same.
NOTES: yay for them being back together!! WORDS: --- TAGGED: open!! OUTFIT: ta-dah!CREDIT: made by HEY BAYBAY !? at caution. [/center] |
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Post by zaryn kate oliver on Mar 16, 2011 17:24:58 GMT -10
he frowned slightly. zee knew him well enough to know what type of frown it was. it wasn't the kind of frown that meant he was angry, or the kind that meant he was nervous. this was carson's confused frown -- and she could understand exactly why he was confused. after all, she'd been the one to break up with him, and now here she was kissing him and asking him if they could go back.
"go back... as in... us?" he asked quietly. the look in his eyes seemed almost desperate, like he needed her to agree. zaryn nearly melted as she looked back up at him. she felt like she was going to do something embarrassing like burst into tears, and she couldn't have that, could she?
slowly, carefully, she nodded. if she moved too fast, she might break into a million little pieces scattered in the snow... "yeah," she said. then she had to go ahead and add in the rest of what she'd been thinking, what was coming to her mind in the form of a song, and say it in one of those spurts of words that was almost unintelligible because of the speed at which it was said. maybe this is wishful thinking, probably mindless dreaming... "i swear i'll be better this time." but if we loved again, i swear i'd love you right...
word count; a bunch :)
wearing; this
muse; what the hell, avril lavigne
notes; *happydance* theysocute
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Post by carson on Mar 22, 2011 7:55:35 GMT -10
just talk yourself up [/size] A N D T E A R Y O U R S E L F D O W N - - - - - - - - - - - -Carson wasn’t usually one to pray for anything, but he was now. If this could work out, he’d be so happy. Of course, he wasn’t going to be pushy and if she wanted to just be friends, it was fine. And if she wanted them to be together again, but take it slow, he’d do that too. Anything to figure this out. That was really all he wanted. And he knew that as confusing as all this was, she just wanted the same thing. To work out whatever was going on, and figure out the best solution. However, he had no idea what solution they could come up with. He just knew that whatever they talked about, he wanted it to be good and worthwhile.
He was aware that he might look a bit desperate, but he couldn’t hide that. He was just hoping against all odds that everything would turn in his favor. And the more he thought of it that way, the more he realized it sounded a bit selfish. He could feel his heart jump as he heard a muffled yes pass through Zaryn’s lips. Yes?! In all honesty, he wanted to pull her into a big hug and shout out that he loved her. But he didn’t want to appear that needy for her wanting to start over. No, he couldn’t do that. Instead, a smile covered his lips and he reached out to take her frozen hands in his own. Though, his own hands were frozen, so he didn’t know how much help that would be.
Carson shook his head as she spoke again. "I swear I'll be better this time." She had already been perfect in his eyes when they were together before. Just this time, they actually knew about each other’s pasts. “You were amazing before, I wouldn’t want you to change.” He loved her for her, regardless of what she’d been through with her life, or even what they had gone through. He wanted her to be with him because she truly wanted to, and not for convenience. He smiled softly, gently pulling her towards him to give her a gentle hug. Nothing overkill, just a soft embrace. And this time, he hardly realized the snow. He was just focused on the beauty nestled between his arms.
NOTES: yay for them being back together!! WORDS: --- TAGGED: open!! OUTFIT: ta-dah!CREDIT: made by HEY BAYBAY !? at caution. [/center] |
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Post by zaryn kate oliver on Mar 26, 2011 8:56:02 GMT -10
the look in carson's eyes told zee that he wanted this as much as she did. still, she couldn't be sure until he said so, until he did something, anything, to let her know that it was true. she wondered if he could hear her heartbeat, jumping about hopefully as she waited for a sign that everything would be okay. even a sign that everything might be okay.
the sign was that carson's lips turned up at the corners and went a little bit farther than just a normal little smile, and both of his hands closed around her own, linking their fingers together. zaryn's hands were numb and she could barely feel the places where their skin touched, but she was smiling now, too. he shook his head quickly, and zaryn's heart stopped for a fearfully long split second before he said, "you were amazing before. i wouldn't want you to change."
she just looked back at him with big eyes. amazing? sure. amazing people always broke up with their boyfriends because they were too perfect. amazing people did what she did. but if he thought that, why should she push it and apologize more and screw herself over? besides, she was a little preoccupied with the fact that he was tugging her towards him and then wrapping his arms around her. zee locked her arms around his neck and just breathed in the scent of him, trying not to do so too loudly or obviously.
it felt so right, the way that the two of them fit so perfectly together and the way he held her and the way he smelled exactly like he used to, a smell she couldn't even give a name to. "i... i missed you."
word count; a bunch...
wearing; this
muse; masterpiece theatre ii, marianas trench
notes; should we finish this thread up / do a new one?? :P
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